RAMBLINGS VOL 21

Ive talked a lot about change and this current season of life lately. About how we’re waiting for

direction and growing in our understanding of what it means to truly trust. In all of this the

 hardest thing that I am recognizing that during this time I have to "let go." 

I need to let go of some of the things that I hold closest to my heart. That when I really trust with

everything that I have then I am free to let go of my deepest desires and fears. I can let those 

things "die"in a sense, meaning I am unafraid to move forward in life even if those

 hopes and expectations don’t come with me.

This is sometimes really difficult, I want certain things, I want to see these beautiful dreams become a

reality. Its like when I said that tomorrow may look different than what I expected and that’s ok. Out of all of this I am relearning that it is ok to grieve these losses, for me it’s a true “death” of sorts when I lay my dreams down. I am learning that I have to do this to keep my untrusting and controlling nature at bay. It is the hardest thing to let go of the things I want to control the most. But when I release all of these things I become a better me. I can embrace what is next without regret or disappointment.

By no means do I do this well, but I see the value in remembering this and trying
to pursue this in my life. It will be a life long  thing that I will constantly learning :)