ART & MY HEART


Lately I feel like I'm at a loss for words. Almost every time I open my mouth to try and 
explain something it's like my mind draws a blank as if the words that I have to explain 
the way I feel keep bumping against an invisible wall. Like if I needed to describe what 
Im passionate about right now or how I go about starting a painting I draw a blank. 

This may seem off topic but this is one of the many reasons I love my husband. He is the 
complete opposite of me. He is a fierce thinker. He knows in full detail why he thinks what 
he thinks and he always has the words to describe it. It used to frustrate me because I couldn't 
piece my thoughts together in the same way but I realize now that this is sometimes a great gift. 

I function on emotion and feelings nearly 100% of the time. It is my impulse, like breathing
I just cant help it. And then it hit me. This is the very pulse of my being, my creative nature. 
To feel and sense the spaces around me and draw from it without over thinking. I just feel and I 
create, there is nothing better than sitting in front of a blank canvas. Closing my eyes and imagining 
the first color. Sometimes it's a simple blue stroke drawing from the bottom of the canvas up towards 
the top at a gradual curve. I don't always know how to explain the way Im feeling in the moment. 
But a few moments behind a camera or with a brush in hand can bring me clarity. 
Viewing what others may see as a weakness I can see now as a strength. 

Has there ever been something that you thought was your weakness only to realize it was a gift? 



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