RAMBLINGS VOL 2 | REFLECTION AND FIRES
My heart has been heavy lately. Marcus and I are getting ready to go into our last year of school next Monday which should be really exciting, and it is, but I tend to get anxious and fearful of what I do not know. I am transferring over to and actual campus location to finish up my Interior Design degree. The last 3 years I have been going online so it's a whole different ball game now. I actually have to talk to people. This may seem like a "duh" moment but if you know me you understand that I am a total introvert who really over analyzes any new situation or potential situation. Even to go so far as to think a month in advance about the potential classroom situations I may be in. I know that this sounds crazy and it is and to make you feel better this is better than it used to be. I am now more aware of this madness and try to take a deep breath more often and just live my life rather than work myself up into an unnecessary panic.
Anyways, I was just reading this post which left me with tears rolling down my cheeks. It was such a good reminder that we are given or allowed different life situations to help mold and grow us into better people. That the Lord never gives us more than we can handle and that we are able to trust in him despite our own perspective of a situation.
After this next year we don't know were we will be living. We dont know what jobs we will have. There are so many unknowns and after 4 years of school and money invested that this can be a scary thought. But I know that the one thing I can rely on is the Lord, I am constantly reminded to trust that he will provide and to trust that I can hear his voice and direction in my life.
I may not know what is going to be happening. I may not know what to expect from this next year, but I do know that I will try my hardest to pursue a place of peace and contentment no matter where I am or what I am doing.
*Now for some pictures from a fun impromptu camping trip and crazy morning adventures...
So we met up with our friends late friday night just as it was getting dark and after traveling over a not so smooth gravel road. We set up our tents and enjoyed a peaceful evening around a fire. Maybe too peaceful, we should have noticed that no one else was having fires or any conversations at all.
It all became clear at 4:30 am as car after car drove up past our tent and low and behold we woke up in a parking lot. With the wonderful revelation that this was the one day a year that crazy fit people hit to the mountains for "Ridge Run" a 19.65 mile run. We woke up to over 200 people getting ready for this run. Lets just say that this wasn't our idea of a relaxing morning. But we got lucky and found another open site and the laziness in us picked up our tents, set them on top of the car while I nestled into a car seat to help stabilize the tent during the transfer. Once we settled in it was a fun and relaxing rest of the weekend.
So lesson to learn... always make sure there isn't some crazy race going on right where you set up camp
