Kendra Castillo

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Wrestling with Anxiety

In the past I’ve never wanted to admit to being an anxious person, sure I've seen the signs, but I thought if I admitted it then I would loose all control and get lost in the sea of anxiety. But recently things have been becoming clearer... 

Us moving from Bozeman Montana at the end of 2014

I’ve definitely been scared to make decisions over the past few years. Most of it probably stems from a moment in time when I felt oh so confident in a decision to move & take a risk. We packed up our bags, took off in our Uhaul & I’d like to say the story ended easily & beautifully, but that’s not how it went... well in a way it did.

Because 2 years later those same boxes are still packed in storage unpacked in a different state. We have faced many emotional & personal challenges & I can say I got lost a bit along the way. 
But over the pst few months I’m reaching for healing, not just survival mode. I learning even more to trust the unknown and believe in dreams + hope in a new way. 
I can confidently, 100% say that I wouldn’t be painting & doing all of these things if we had unpacked our uhaul & moved into that house we had imagined after we left Montana.

Sometimes, the hardest, longest seasons can have such sweet moments that keep you going for another day. 
I just wanted to share a bit more of my story with you guys. You each mean a lot to me & it’s easy to get frustrated and lost in a sea of “likes” & “follows.” I hope you know how much you mean to me!

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