I find myself weekly or more accurately daily, stumbling upon thoughts as  Im walking to class or laying in bed or where my mind is just rambling away when it should be focused on what Im doing. And thats were these little "rambling" posts all started from, because I find that there seems to be a common "theme" to some of the jumbled mess going on in my head and if I just stop for a moment and write them down I am able to learn or move forward in one way or another.

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Lately this mess of thoughts have crowded my mind and distracted me for really living like I want to. I wonder sometimes why these distracted thoughts have to come about and make me forget the person I want to be. Instead living the way I want I am so focused on the negative things or concerns that keep popping into my head.

Recently it has been thoughts of "am I good enough or trying hard enough" I feel like this season of life that we are in has come with some added stress and because of this I feel like Im not living the way I used to or ever want to. I feel like I have put relationships on the back burner, have had some not so good responses and have made way to many excused to why I feel so tired and just want to cuddle up in bed after the mountain homework is lessened.

But I dont like this feeling that Im not "doing" enough. I want to just live and be content with what this season looks like. It may be different than what it was in the past or what it will look like in 6 months. No matter what the season I want to be content and satisfied that I am loving and being the person I want to be.


*feel free to link up your own "ramblings" post in the comments below