Lately my mind has been wandering. 

I've been wondering a lot about our future,

Where we're going

What we will be doing

What family looks like

I've been questioning myself, 

Do I really know how to love people

Am I the person I want to be 

Am I the same person at home as I am around others

I've been struggling with feeling like Im not doing enough, 

That I've failed in friendships

That I struggle with wanting to just stay in my house and be a hermit sometimes

I've come to realize that this is a natural part of life, these questions and feelings. I now get to choose how to handle them. It's not always easy and I often fail. But the real question I've begun to ask myself is "who am I living for?" Is is validation from others that I'm doing enough? 

I want to be satisfied and not feel guilty about my life and the way it looks right now. I want to keep growing and I do recognize areas in my life that I want to change, because right now its not the way I want it to be. I think my biggest challenge is to be content even when life is crazy and seemingly messy. I need to remember what is important and who I put my trust in. 

My mind may be wandering but I think where my heart has landed is in a place of renewed hope and reassurance.